i'm sorry. but that isn't enough.

things just aren't right.
i have seen many of my friends run away from home.
i never thought it would be so hard.
it's harder getting kicked out of your own home.
not being able to go back.
having to break into my own house.
this just isn't normal.

how i would just turn back time to have things the way they were.
when i had nothing to worry about.
i love my family.
but i don't think they do to me.

maybe life is fair.
i've been doing things a teenager my age shouldn't be doing.
and this is my punishment.
being abandoned by my own family.

things just ain't right.
i don't know how to make things right again.
things are just too screwed up to be fixed.

it's never too late.

first time in history,
Sri KDU basketball got something.
well the under-18 girls only. (:
as expected, we got beaten by catholic.
but we still had to play the 3/4 match
anddd. surprisingly, we won.
sooo we're like 3rd.
and that shows that we're not some spoilt brats who can't play. (:

i got kinda offended when i heard someone say
''KDU people have nice shoes, but spoilt brats like them can't play''
that kinda hurt.
whoever you are, that wasn't very nice. pfffft.

it's not over.

we beat DJ yesterday.
and we're in the semi-finals tomorrow!
i'm more scared than ever!
and unfortunatly, we're up against Catholic. ):
I just hope we don't get trashed.

Sweeter than apple pie.

MSSD season has started.
Today all 4 girls and boys, under 15 and under 18 teams played.
and out of the four teams 3 of us emerge victorious. (:
Sorry Under-15 boys. =/
Under-18 girls had the first match of the day against SMK Assunta,
fun match, more or less some of the same people as last year.
And the first ever time the under-15 girls won, against home team(Sri Permata).
Under-18 boys trashed Section 10 cowcow. 44-0
very entertaining to watch.
Unfortuantly, the Under-15 boys have gotten BU3, it was a really tough match, but still. Oh well..

Tomorrow,
Against DJ(u-18).
I'm freaking scared shitless.

people don't lose strength, they lose will.

and i think i've lost my will.

i don't know what's trust anymore.
i think i've lied to myself too much to even trust myself.

and maybe you're right, it's karma that my leg is injured and that i'm on fucking crutches again.
i can handle this pain no problem, watch me run in just a matter of days.
but wait, don't worry cause you're karma's coming soon.
and i'd predict sometime June or July.
or sooner.

isn't hate just so strong.
it's like it has a mind of it's own.

take me back to that moment. and leave me there.

Happy Birthday sister.

yesterday, was fun.
went to school in the morning cause i felt like i needed to be a good girl.
Then, after school,together with etain and sister,
went to bangsar for some girltime shopping spree. (:
oh so fun.
we bought like so much! literally,so much!
etain and i did something bad, but fun. :o

then after, we went for the birhtday party at modestos, hartamas.
little problem going there.
but.. we got there in the end.
it was fun. nice music, nice booze. (:
danced a lot. funny times.
watched football too. argh.



sometimes. i think things happen for a reason.
but most of the times, i can't think of a reason.
and life is unpredictable. sometimes it's fair, when you know you did something wrong, and you recieve your concequences. it's only luck that you get away with it.
and it's even fair when even after you've given so much, nothing is appreciated, no gratitude whatsoever, all sacrifices made, nothing?
i wish i could just rewind and go back to times where everything was okay. i was safe. life was fair.
but wishes never come true.
i wish everyday for something good to happen. but maybe god's just playing with me, turning my wishes upside down.
my wishes are my hopes. and i'm begining to stop wishing, and stop hoping.
i feel pretty dumb for someone who can score in academics.

sorry for rambling.
i'm kinda fucked up.

thank you, Etain. (:
so much.

i'm still wondering why i care to wish/hope for you.

we could spend the night, watch the earth come up.

hello earthlinks.
days have been days.

the guys got me going to cyber cafe. =/
and i actually had fun!
god. i feel so strange.
i even got up at 3 am in the morning just to go with them!
nyeh rawr. things i do for friends.

oh today, i went for my undang talk thing.
5 whole hours.
oh my god, i almost died in there.
Etain and I were the only Chinese.
Where have all the Chinese gone? =/

later, we went to the curve.
makaned at Charms.
Oh and i satisfied my cravings for tong yun.
which i started craving since monday.
and i've been annoying a few people with it. sorrry lah!

oh Dwayne's birthday was on the 20th.
So Happy belated Birthday! though i did wish you at exactly 12 am.
but i post i here lah. make you happy a bit.

and The Sister's birthday is next week.
party. (: