take me back to that moment. and leave me there.

Happy Birthday sister.

yesterday, was fun.
went to school in the morning cause i felt like i needed to be a good girl.
Then, after school,together with etain and sister,
went to bangsar for some girltime shopping spree. (:
oh so fun.
we bought like so much! literally,so much!
etain and i did something bad, but fun. :o

then after, we went for the birhtday party at modestos, hartamas.
little problem going there.
but.. we got there in the end.
it was fun. nice music, nice booze. (:
danced a lot. funny times.
watched football too. argh.



sometimes. i think things happen for a reason.
but most of the times, i can't think of a reason.
and life is unpredictable. sometimes it's fair, when you know you did something wrong, and you recieve your concequences. it's only luck that you get away with it.
and it's even fair when even after you've given so much, nothing is appreciated, no gratitude whatsoever, all sacrifices made, nothing?
i wish i could just rewind and go back to times where everything was okay. i was safe. life was fair.
but wishes never come true.
i wish everyday for something good to happen. but maybe god's just playing with me, turning my wishes upside down.
my wishes are my hopes. and i'm begining to stop wishing, and stop hoping.
i feel pretty dumb for someone who can score in academics.

sorry for rambling.
i'm kinda fucked up.

thank you, Etain. (:
so much.

i'm still wondering why i care to wish/hope for you.