something's breaking up, i feel like giving up.

i'm poisoned!
ah. food poisoning lah.
my tummy feels funnny. ):

trial 1's coming up.
boo, and i'm not ready for it.
i've studied, a bit.
but i know it's not enough.
trial're pretty important, if i wanna get early entry into colleges.
not sure where i'd be yet.

i wonder,
if you can ever like me,
for who i am now,
forget who i ever was last time.
i've changed.
and i'm gonna stay this way a while,
i'd like you to see that.

life's a bit crazy now too.
a whole big story to that.
not gonna go into detail though.
but something's breaking up,
and i'm about to give up.

PS

i love you.

nothing tastes as sweet as what i can't have.

realisation.
that's sweet. when you finally realise something.
especially when it's right in front of you, and you thank god that it wasn't too late.

i know i've been slacking in my blogging.
i've been busy. (:
school stuff, party stuff.
things have changed, but it's good.

oh cheer 08 was yesterday and Sri KDU Stunners boys team got 3rd.
congrats.
and haha. i would date a cheerleader.
why not?

i'm happy and satisfied.
but sometimes, you just want more.
and nothing tastes as sweet as what you can't have.

oh, obviously, it's a guy that i want.
and duh, i won't tell you. (:
go figure.

i'm complicated. full of surprises.

it's my birthday and i'd cry if i want to.

thanks for all the things everyone has done for me.
mainly, amanda and her mom, val, lav, buddy, mel, the boys.
everything, thank you so much.
i'm sorry things didn't really turn out in the end.
but before that, i had fun.
it was the best i ever had.

this birthday i have learnt.
how friends are important.
it's hard choosing between my two worlds.
i don't want to choose.
i love all so much, sacrificed so much too.
i wouldn't give it all away just like that.

maybe i was wrong,
i don't know,
sometimes people do wrong things without knowing,
i need to know, so i can change.

i love my friends all so much,
but it's hard to say if they feel the same too,
after what i have heard and seen today and yesterday,
i'm confused.
things have changed, since about 2-3 weeks.
never thought it would, but life's full of surprises.

would you hurt me, physically or emotionally, if or not it was my birthday?
why would my birthday make a difference on how you treat me?
when did everything change?
how am i suppose to handle this?
my questions. my answers.

i love all my friends. no matter how much they've hurt me.

another year gone, more of life to come.

OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !
just marvy marvy.
(:

thank you for all the wishes.
i love you all.

one step closer to legalliatliy.

in just two days.
oh marrrvvyy.
i'm already having the jitters.
i can't wait.

3 nights one event.
i hope all goes well. (:
i just want this to be memorable.

this is like big whooop for me.
17... mmmm
my car..

life as it is.

hello there.
i know i've been lacking a lot in the updating department.
even my sister has taken the intiative to post for me.

so things have been pretty weird, wild, unexpected lately. too much to say.
but bottom line. It's the exam week and Merde!
i'm really not ready.
i haven't memorised a thing for bloody moral.
i'm just screwed off the the lands of dead.

i am utterly in love with brit lads.
oh the sexiness in the way they speak.
mmmmmm.




blimey! ain't he just gorgey. (:

My sister is awesome.

So I know I haven't been updating lately, due to the lack of time I have in my hands and course, shit going around me. But forget that, I'll probably be a little bit more responsible with my blog after the mid terms that's making me go all bitchy. *barks like a bitch*

:D

P/S: My sister rocks my panties OFF.